Sometimes there are words that the heart cannot utter. I have many of those these days.
I don't know if I will understand the how in this life but I do understand the power in prayer. All the prayers that have been sent up in behalf of our family and by our family, have been heard and answered; profoundly so. I am so grateful for that. I know the heartache that comes from being distanced from someone you love and not being able to be right there to help, but if you sincerely pray, God does send someone else to fill the intents of your heart.
I have been reading a lot lately trying to find answers to questions that are hard to answer. I have been greatly inspired as I search. I felt this life to be very burdensome at times (hahaha) and then I came across these scriptures. Let me tell you that I must have really needed to hear them because their meaning hit me during family scripture struggle, I mean study. The setting is that the people of Alma are in bondage not only to the Lamanites but to Amulon who was a priest of King Noah, all of this thru no fault of their own. This was just an affliction that the Lord saw fit to put them thru (Mosiah 23:21) Mosiah 24:13-15 "And it came to pass that the voice of the Lord came to them in their afflictions, saying: Lift up your heads and be of good comfort, for I know of the covenant which ye have made unto me; and I will covenant with my people and deliver them out of bondage.
And will also ease the burden which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as a witness for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety the I, the Lord God do visit my people in their afflictions.
And no it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord."
I will stand as a witness that the Lord does visit his people in their afflictions, and that I am able to stand because he has made my burdens light even while I am in this mortal bondage. I am doing my best to submit cheerfully and with patience, letting Him know when I can go no further without his grace and strength.
We are continually going through tests 'not devised by human hands'. We are being refined in the Lord's crucible more often that we would chose. We are faced with the things that have the potential to hurt us most, but they are never greater than we can withstand; as he 'also make(s) a way to escape, that we may be able to bear it.' (1 Corinthians 10:13)
I have found how resilient my soul can be, I fear to know how resilient it could be. I have been bent further than I ever thought possible, time and time again. Each time I chose the path of the Lord he walks with me. President Uchtdorf said this about the 'why of obedience to the gospel?' ; "It magnifies our small acts of obedience into holy acts of consecration." I have witnessed time and time again that it is far more difficult to NOT live the gospel of Jesus Christ than it is to live it. When mortality gets tough I have a deep reservoir on which to draw; when I "have need(ed) to reach down inside a little deeper to face life and do (my) work, (I) will be sure there is something down there to call upon."
I am so grateful for every blessing granted me just so I can live another day and be happy. I am thankful choice and inspiration to make the right one, as God's will and timetable for my personal development are not always what I think they should be. I am so thankful that even while I feel I am in hell I can still keep walking. I am so thankful....
I don't know if I will understand the how in this life but I do understand the power in prayer. All the prayers that have been sent up in behalf of our family and by our family, have been heard and answered; profoundly so. I am so grateful for that. I know the heartache that comes from being distanced from someone you love and not being able to be right there to help, but if you sincerely pray, God does send someone else to fill the intents of your heart.
I have been reading a lot lately trying to find answers to questions that are hard to answer. I have been greatly inspired as I search. I felt this life to be very burdensome at times (hahaha) and then I came across these scriptures. Let me tell you that I must have really needed to hear them because their meaning hit me during family scripture struggle, I mean study. The setting is that the people of Alma are in bondage not only to the Lamanites but to Amulon who was a priest of King Noah, all of this thru no fault of their own. This was just an affliction that the Lord saw fit to put them thru (Mosiah 23:21) Mosiah 24:13-15 "And it came to pass that the voice of the Lord came to them in their afflictions, saying: Lift up your heads and be of good comfort, for I know of the covenant which ye have made unto me; and I will covenant with my people and deliver them out of bondage.
And will also ease the burden which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as a witness for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety the I, the Lord God do visit my people in their afflictions.
And no it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord."
I will stand as a witness that the Lord does visit his people in their afflictions, and that I am able to stand because he has made my burdens light even while I am in this mortal bondage. I am doing my best to submit cheerfully and with patience, letting Him know when I can go no further without his grace and strength.
We are continually going through tests 'not devised by human hands'. We are being refined in the Lord's crucible more often that we would chose. We are faced with the things that have the potential to hurt us most, but they are never greater than we can withstand; as he 'also make(s) a way to escape, that we may be able to bear it.' (1 Corinthians 10:13)
I have found how resilient my soul can be, I fear to know how resilient it could be. I have been bent further than I ever thought possible, time and time again. Each time I chose the path of the Lord he walks with me. President Uchtdorf said this about the 'why of obedience to the gospel?' ; "It magnifies our small acts of obedience into holy acts of consecration." I have witnessed time and time again that it is far more difficult to NOT live the gospel of Jesus Christ than it is to live it. When mortality gets tough I have a deep reservoir on which to draw; when I "have need(ed) to reach down inside a little deeper to face life and do (my) work, (I) will be sure there is something down there to call upon."
I am so grateful for every blessing granted me just so I can live another day and be happy. I am thankful choice and inspiration to make the right one, as God's will and timetable for my personal development are not always what I think they should be. I am so thankful that even while I feel I am in hell I can still keep walking. I am so thankful....
